began to sudarme hands, my heart pounded and my feelings and head were all scrambled, a good thing that Edward could not read my mind , was that I could protect myself from him, I could have my privacy, my feelings, thoughts and emotions for me, my privacy, but now assumed a greater understanding to him about my situation, I felt naked and exposed before him.
The minute they came out, Edward entered the kitchen door, and when he did, just entered shock, he looked so normal, so ordinary, as if the past year had gone, I knew I could forgive him and everything was back as before, could really, but for a person, Jacob Black, he had entered my life for the better, to rebuild, to renew, I loved and I was sure I love him, he could not do this.
looked at me and ran to hug me, took me in those arms of marble and kissed my hair and held me and I just left there, with my head resting against the hollow between his shoulder and his neck, knowing how well that encajábamos together, good and sure I was at his side, yet I felt insecure, because I knew that sooner or later our differences separate us, I was still listening to my breathing and my heart, because even though I knew that Edward had a heart, a very good, yours did not beat ...
took a step back, and I knew what would happen was when two parts of me began to fight, one of them was that I wanted to kiss me and one that I depart, the two Fine living in me, so different, but part of a whole, parts of me. Edward looked at me, I knew I was looking for signs to be told that was what I was thinking, giving me time to away if that was what I wanted, and I wanted so I took her face in my hands, stroking his chin with the tips of my fingers, kissed with just the touch, because I knew what I wanted, I did not feel bad, I did not want to kiss me, I did not want.
- you love me - he said, pressing her face to mine, touching her lips with mine, I got your scent, filled me, I felt, I closed my eyes and breathed slowly, kissed the corner of my lips, with that calm he hated, because I knew it was not quiet, it was fear and that's what brought me back, he would never to be equality between us.
I stepped back, leaning against the kitchen counter, putting away.
- What about Bella? - I said, stepping forward, but I shook my head, I raised my hand and I avoided it, frowning at me but nothing came, he respected my space. - I know you love me -
- supposed to know how I feel now - nodded his head slowly, the problem was that he knew by Jasper was only part of my emotions, there was in them, nothing that I felt for Jake, no, it was just Edward and that clearly was not going to give an objective picture. - I ... I. .. I just need some time to sort out my ideas -
took my hand, so fast that my brain did not have time to process the motion.
- Nothing think - whispered stroking my wrist.
- I am now with someone else Edward - I looked into his eyes, waiting to see what was being sincere - And I also I have mixed feelings he - hurt, I saw in his eyes, that flash of sadness and anger, a slight, momentary, but clear enough, was now calm and I had to tell him everything now, so I took her hand and continued talking, he knew that now was the right time. - There was a time I thought we were destined to be together ... forever - burned a crack in my chest where my heart beat anxiously, hurrying to their presence, swallowed in thickness, prepared for a possible reaction, because despite being calm both knew that it was that this was sincere and honest and not a product of anger, jealousy or anger, this situation, the context, to make things a reality, an objective reality - But you changed that fate ... you left ... you left - felt the tears come to my eyes, filling and just now I had the strength to prevent them from falling, so they are allowed - I left ... without me - opened his mouth to say something, but the street with a hand gesture; incredibly obeyed, which was impressive because lately he did nothing of what I asked - changed my course and now not if I go back and take the road closed in the past, I ... I'm fine now -
- What does that mean? -
- Nothing Edward, means I'm confused and need to think, think about myself, just give me time to resolve -
- Okay, if that's what you need, you will press - there it was back on Edward I missed, which I fell in love, the understanding, that I listened and I pressed ...
- Thanks -
- "I can come see you? - I grimaced, I know, not on purpose, it was only a reaction and he clearly saw it as the outright denial that it was actually uncomfortable - Please just let me be close -
- I ... I do not know, really do not think it's a good idea. -
- We prove, when you do not feel comfortable I will leave - I was thinking, really had nothing wrong, provided they keep their distance, I also really liked the idea of \u200b\u200bhaving it away, not knowing he was back, I wanted to Edward in my life.
- right, but it makes me go that afternoon. - looked at me with disdain, because he knew where I was going perfectly, but thank God he was silent, I did well, otherwise I would have thrown out the back door without any consideration on my part.
nodded and leaned over to give me a gentle kiss on the lips, the lips that only one who felt so out of place and in a blink was away from home, I closed my eyes and leaned against the counter, trying concentrate on making my heart stop beating so wildly in my chest. I took the containers with food and got into several super bags, cleaned the kitchen at lightning speed, I was late to go home with Jake, I rode in the van, ready to spend 20 minutes to push, before leaving I called dad and told him to spend the night with Jake.
I went to Emily's house, where I just got to leave the dishes in and out, before they all see me ugly, because at this time and was sure they would know what to Jasper, I cared for, I knew what he was doing and had nothing to be ashamed, greeted Emily who gave me a look that confirmed everything, I went fast, and if it was late, I parked the truck and before coming to the door is opened, it was Jake.
- But what are you doing up? - I said as I pushed him in, put my palm on his chest to feel as warm as it always had been, and relief flooded me there was no better signal to know that Jake was better.
"I'm helping my girlfriend - I said taking my hand bags, giving me a chance to say anything, chased him through the kitchen.
-Jake should not be stopped, it's okay to feel better, but do not ... - turned on his heel and cornered me against the wall, kissed me tenderly and then went up the intensity of the kiss, until I was breathless, I needed air, but neither wanted to break the kiss his warm lips covered mine, stupid I compared his lips to Edward, were so different, it was then that I felt bad, that comparison, I fell like a bucket of cold water, my lips parted hers and Jake continued kissing my neck, his hands jutted below my T-shirt.
"Jake, we can see - I gasped, because I could hardly breathe.
-Billy is Harry's house, no one will disturb us - looked me straight in the eye, stroking my jaw "I love you Bella, more than anything in this world - ok, so if it killed me at first because I was being honest, I knew that glint in their eyes that glimmer of the old Jake, who I fell in love, which really was in love, now, today in the present tense time real, that I had taken from my darkness, my hole, that he loved me and respected me and I could not do this, he had to know, even with bad consequences, I knew that my confession would probably, not deserve this.
I kissed her again, though I wanted to kiss broke, because he had to say, that the girlfriend knew how bad it was, how bad it was appropriate, so that I knew, because I hated being me hide things and it was not fair that I was able to hide it.
-Jake ... I have to say ... something -
-dilo - said as he kissed my neck and touch my stomach.
words faded from my mind, I was more focused on jake's touch, that what he had to say, so before you lose the thread, I put with all my strength will my hands on his chest and pushed him, turned away and looked at me seriously.
- What happens? - I said, paying full attention.
- 'Yo ... well ... I did something very bad that I have to say, because it is not fair that you hide things - he was turning the matter, because he was a coward, oh yes it was.
"You tell me, you're scaring me - took a step toward me and took my hands.
I squeezed his hand, I bit my lip nervously, knowing the bomb was about to drop, I knew what would happen, but it was fair.
"I kissed Edward - I said before I threw out after like the coward I am.
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Girls thanks for your comments, do not worry that no bad hand typing, haha \u200b\u200bso I take long to go, but if God wants to take away my splint next week, because I do not want this ugly thing for Christmas ...
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