"I kissed Edward, I let go of the blue, eyes closed I spit it because I knew that if I kept watching it was not going to say, because he was a coward, because he knew this would hurt him deeply, but I knew also could not hide because it is something that was weighing me, I weighed in consciousness because I knew it was something that did not deserve.
expression was kept empty and blank, as if unable to process my words, but he did it, understood them perfectly, I knew when dropped my hand and dropped to his side, I knew when blinking and looked at me without expression in his eyes, I knew when he took a step backwards, when a slight tremor ran through her body. I saw how it hurt and it hurt me too, because he knew how hurt a lie, because I knew the pain that caused the love, the chest pain gnawing, burning the soul and heart.
It hurt because I loved him, loved him, he had been when he needed me company when I needed someone to listen to me there had been, was patient and kind, had me laughing ever had made me feel happy and desired, and as she watched him there in front of me with his fists closed tight I could not feel more than the mean and ungrateful person in the world, I bit my lip waiting for yelling at me, I deserved it, closed my eyes and waited because he knew that if I kept looking at me to mourn and would not be fair to Jake, not wanting to feel pity or obligation to me, I deserved everything, including contempt.
I opened my eyes, neither had moved, we were in the same position had been ... well not know how much time had passed, but I noticed that Jake's hands were more relaxed as your breathing.
opened his eyes and looked at me.
- When? - Asked.
"Last night I whispered, did not have to know the details, I had to know who had been in his house in his room, alone and although we had not done nothing wrong, did not want to know the details are not important, at least not now.
clenched his fists, a shiver ran through her body, shot in thick and looked at me.
- So? - \u200b\u200bAs soon let that word, his jaw went back to being rigidly locked, I knew I was controlling, not to become, I knew I was having trouble.
-Y ... Jake nothing happened "His shoulders relaxed and even though I knew Alice y. .. Edward said they were dangerous, I come to him, because he knew he never would hurt me. I touched his shoulder, as I departed I was more bold and took him by the chin forcing him to drop his eyes to meet mine, nothing happened, "I repeated, hoping that if I believe, because I do not think to myself, something had happened, although to be sure before, now it was not ... What was what had changed with that kiss?
closed his eyes again, deep breath and looked at me again.
Bells "Okay, I think, if you say that was only a kiss, I do not care, does not change what I feel ... I love you, "she whispered reloading his forehead against mine, and smiled while my eyes filled with tears, because the Somehow I knew that this man did not deserve, I deserve it flashes to dispel the tears, but one of them will inevitably ran down my cheek, but did not get very far because Jake stopped her with a kiss.
"Do not cry," she whispered in his ear, stroking my cheeks with his thumbs, and I closed my eyes enjoying the warmth that spread over my skin, I felt and what I wanted and when she put her lips on mine, I returned the kiss, a kiss that tasted of pain, I knew tears, I breathed, I felt it, tasted it, this man who loved me, her warm tongue is entangle with mine his lips attached to mine, were soft and warm, so different from ... Isabella Damn! I broke the kiss, because I was confused ... when I was with Edward inevitably compared it to Jacob and when he was with Jake, as compared to Edward.
- What is it? - I asked bewildered, shook my head, because I knew what was going to say "anything Jake, it's just that when you kiss me I compared with my ex and when Edward Cullen I compared you kissed me and now I just realized that I am confused because I'm in love with the two "that was the honest answer, but could not give it because he was a coward.
-nothing, "said ... I have said I am a coward.
And when I took her by the waist and stroked my hair again came fully aware, because the same sentence, my mind turned to "undeserving" so when approached his lips to mine again I put my finger on her lips and stroked.
"I can not whispered while shaking her head. "I need time to think,
- What are you talking about Bella? What do you think? - The grip had loosened my belt, but did not let go, which was somehow a relief.
"I'm confused-
- Confused how? Do you love me not - I nodded, I knew I loved him, he felt, but the kiss he had given to Edward I changed something and I knew what it meant, I saw the relief in the dark eyes of Jake , but since I did not change my expression had to ask something else.
- What about him? - Do not know what in the language of many, including my own means if, as they say around "The silence gives consent," let go of my waist and pulled away from me, I wrapped the cold forced me to wake up out of my reverie.
-Jake ... I'm confused, I need to clarify my feelings, tensed shoulders and these tremors began to walk your body back, closed his eyes and I waited, I watched him inhale and exhale repeatedly until it was controlled.
"Okay Bella, clarify your feelings," he said coldly, and it hurt because I knew he was hurting and I'm sentimental like me to mourn and let go as the gentleman he is, came up to me and hugged me , let me mourn in his chest like so many other times. "Calm down Bella," she whispered as she placed a kiss on my hair, I tried to control my sobs for a moment and I think I succeeded because I was away from his embrace and had him look into his eyes. "I'll be fine," she smiled, it really did, but failed to form such dimples in his cheeks, those who loved me, knew he was being honest, once I told you to always be here for you, was a promise, a I promise that will not break, I'll be here by your side forever, as you want, even if you decide you just want to be my friend, wiped my cheeks with his fingers again, "Take the time you need, you'll be aware of , although I do not see-
"But ... I ... I do wish to see, "he said, his voice quivering with emotion, was being so understanding with me, which made me feel better and worse at the same time.
"It's the best ... you have the mind clearer, though I did not like was right, I'll be waiting for your answer, "she said softly and kissed me gently on the lips, but I returned it, I struck my hands around his neck because he knew I was not going to see for a while and wanted this to be a good farewell, my tongue tangled with his own tears streaming down my cheeks, his hands gripped tightly around my waist and when I felt out of breath, turned away. "Thanks for bringing the super even though you said it was not necessary, gave me a smile ... He grinned at me.
"Cuidate" I said, I knew that if I went now I would never.
-Like we said goodbye with the hand as I walked out the door in the kitchen carrying a huge weight off my shoulders because I knew that if I pretended I was hurt, deep, deep, because I knew that words could lie, but the eyes.
And it was true that later confirmed later at home, lying in my bed, after doing something he considered necessary, as I phoned the Cullen house.
- "Hello?" Said Alice in line with his booming singing voice.
"Hello Miss, I can go to Edward," I said
-Bella, sorry, "she said with her voice in pot, but I'm not going to convince now.
"Although today I have definitely not Stockholm syndrome * - Alice was definitely not on my list of favorites, after all if she had kidnapped me none of this would be happening," Hand me please-Edward repeated more harshly.
-Bella ... - Began, was rubbing his temples when he changed the voice on the phone, era Edward que probablemente le había arrebatado el aparato de las manos.
-¿Estas bien?- fue lo primero que preguntó, lo cual se me hizo muy tonto, porque de no estarlo no estaría discutiendo con Alice, pero se me hizo un buen detalle.
-estoy bien Edward gracias, yo... solo hablaba para decirte que... no quiero que vengas a verme-
-¿Porqué?- pregunto desconcertado, casi podía imaginármelo al otro lado de la línea presionando el puente de su perfecta nariz.
-Porque necesito pensar... no puedo contigo cerca, Jake también me dará tiempo-
"Okay Bella as you want," he said rather annoyed than convinced-as I know you've made your decision-
"I'll let you know or probably Alice tell you first-I heard his little cry of indignation and I could not help grinning.
-Ok Bella
"Thank you hung up before I could say something else and went to bed.
And while spinning was confused in bed I heard a howl, a plaintive wail, a pain that I confirmed what I already knew, the eyes can not lie, I fell asleep while a tear rolled down my cheek to decorate my nose, where he stopped, undecided like me what to do ...
* Stockholm Syndrome is a psychological reaction in which the victim of a kidnapping, or person detained against his will, he develops an emotional relationship with those who have kidnapped.
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