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stop the car slowly, turning the engine was so smooth that it made no difference in the noise in the street, I did not move, there were questions I wanted to do, I stared at the windshield and faint trace of fog that had in the distance, that was how I felt just now, about my life, full of uncertainty about my future, I was confused about my feelings, my emotions were so confusing I did not know really what I felt, was stirred about everything.
swallowed the thick lump that had formed in my throat and I said barely above a whisper:
-Thanks for the ride, I looked at the driver of the car, his eyes straight ahead while engulfed in thick, was tense I knew that brought me was a challenge for him, especially after everything that had happened between us, but after all, needed him to bring me yet did not know the reason.
grabbed the handle, waiting for me the strength to pull the handle and out of the car, but lost the momentum, had a question, a question struggling to get out of my mouth, but did not know as plants or rather you did know, but I had no value, or to leave, not to ask, I closed my eyes, in a mental debate, this question meant to elicit a response, avoid many problems and many sleepless nights, or so was what I expected, but just my vocal cords could not be started, tried to lock down my throat, swallowing the thick knot, deep breath and without looking at him, I let him go before my value evaporate.
- I can ask you something? - Oh that stupid, took momentum and took him to a stupid question, even in their grammatical development, now that would happen if I said no.
"Sure," she said, her voice tense, but firm, admired, admired his ability to control his emotions, I was on the verge of hysteria and it was hard to control myself. I turned on the seat, looking into his eyes, turned his face towards me and I admire her features, an aristocratic nose, firm chin, a beautiful male eyebrows above a pair of beautiful and expressive eyes the color of melted caramel, which had rarely been happier than now, her soft blond hair, flowing down to the chin, Jasper was a very attractive man and I could see why Alice was so in love with him, although our relationship was never the best, now had agreed to bring me home, he hesitated, I guess because of the last incident and although we knew it was risky, the fact that he accepted it was something he was grateful, I did not want to be with anyone else Cullen family, want to think, to clarify my feelings and knew that Jasper could help me.
-Jasper, What I'm feeling? - was a question I had made to myself during the last half hour and did not know the answer, I really hoped he could help resolve it, smiled a little smile genuine, could count on the fingers often I'd seen him smile, had a nice smile and dimples formed on his cheeks, that his face also became more calm and relaxed and not the concentration that was usually when I was.
"I knew you were going to ask that" He shook his head from side to side, shaking the hair gently, let the wheel and turned a little on the seat to look better. "That's a question that you should consider and resolve your same-I bit my lip and made a grimace.
"I thought you could help me, I crossed my hands in my lap, the uncross my fingers and squeezed, to repeat the process infinitely, I was nervous.
"If I can, but all I can do to help, I can not give the answer to everything, I can tell you that you have feelings, but up to you to find the origin of that feeling-
nodded slowly . "Okay Bella, I want you to breathe deeply, let your emotions flow, closed my eyes and fill my lungs with air, feeling as reveled in air flow completely stops, my emotions were so mixed that I knew what I was feeling. - Sorry, your fear, sadness and anger-mostly frowned, had not helped me at all, even thank him.
-by Jasper, do not know how I appreciate, is how difficult it is for you to be near me, I appreciate it very much, "I pulled the handle of the car, cold and fresh air entered the car, was about out when something incredible happened, his hand grabbed my wrist, gently but firmly, and kept me in the car, I was scared, his touch was gentle, not aggressive, I turned and looked.
-I want to help Bella
-already did, "he said, while putting my hand over hers and squeezed slightly.
"No, I can help, more, I can, I think only in the way, let me think," smiled a little, again.
- Really? - I felt my voice choppy, but it really meant a lot to me.
"Sure, I owe, I want to help, I feel guilty for what happened, looked down, but did not make my arm only made the slightest grip-
" No that's not Jasper is true, "he said shaking his hand, or at least I tried.
-no no, Bella, let me continue, it is something I have to tell you, to tell someone "I stopped, I knew better than anyone that there were times when talking about things, was the best medicine for the ills of heart, he had experienced firsthand "If it were not for my lack of control, maybe this would not have happened, you would stay with Edward, maybe even you'd soon become a permanent and active member of the Cullen clan - looked at me and grimaced, one of those I did when I tried to smile to be sad. "But we will not ever know, messed up, my fault we left, I was the cause Edward insecure about your security, directly'm the cause of all the pain that Edward and you passed, then and now, if there is any way to amend it, at least you now, is something I want and I do; Let me help, I looked up and saw a lot of guilt in that look, I knew it was not his fault.
"I accept your help Jasper gave me another smile, the genuine, gave it back, I just want to clarify something, I know that guilt is an irrational feeling going to protest, but shut up with a kind eye Alice - what happened that day was just the straw that broke the camel, our relationship was segmented, unbalanced Edward knew that and at some point something had happened that would change his opinion, anything that would make the decision they took, if it was you, would have been Victoria, some other incident - sigh - or maybe myself in time, our differences about our life together, there were many, perhaps a solution would, perhaps, I is not sighted, but once someone told me that the future is not written in stone and it is true, now do not feel divided and a little lost among the many feelings that are choking me, but I want to help me because you have the belief and desire, not because you feel guilty and indebted to me, because you are not, I shook my head and patted his arm - not these "
" Thanks Bella, another smile, shook my head, downplaying and denying you, not to me was, was true. "I want to help Bella smiled.
"Thanks Jasper-
" See you tomorrow, give me today to think-
-take the time you need, you know where to find me, just do not follow the bad example of Edward, knocks on the door, smiled and left the car to lean out "By the way Jasper, you look very nice when you smile-
" You have told me-me and I winked I rolled my own morning-
"Tomorrow Mr. Vain-locked the door and did not leave until I got home, Charlie was snoring in his room unaware that her daughter had been kidnapped during the night, good sheriff eh we were in Forks.
I went to bed thinking about what had happened in the last couple of hours, the confession of Edward I had made ball head and kiss I had moved around, not knowing what to do, but at least some had good result tonight, had discovered a Jasper did not know, one that I liked, a sensitive, more humane in that statue to the I was so used, I had never imagined he would feel that way and never thought we could get along better, apparently I was wrong, What was it now? Go back Rosalie's best friend? even I laughed at that thought but then I changed my mind, my life had so many surprises and lessons for two years now I did not know what to think.
Tomorrow would see if the method of Jasper served. RICE expected it.
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What about the capital, I expect? juju to no ... esq ay have you've learned to love Jasper, a little because of Patry has taught me love this character and decided to give a little more important, I think it has much to operate and to contribute to this story ... in order that they think? I deserve to comment? the amoo morning we Temptations in the twilight of my dear Patry ... kisses!
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